posted 2020-01-22 01:41:49

there's a good chance i'm going to marry this woman. she's what i wanted, in a lot of ways; i'm what she wanted, in a lot of ways. five months dating, but we know there's the capacity for it, and we know it'll take time and a whole process of making sure and checking. i like the idea, she likes it too.

cyan told me he's planning to move back home at some point, far away from here. i figured, but i hadn't really dealt with it. we talked a lot about it. it's ok, mostly. it's hard but ok.

she told me it's ok if i want to try to find a new chill boyfriend after he leaves. i don't want to. i just want cyan, at least visiting each other sometimes. i don't know if this will happen.