posted 2019-03-14 12:02:40

Yesterday I felt a lot better. There seems to be a correlation between eating yogurt and mentally feeling good. I signed up for a gym that is closer to my house and did some cardio last night and this morning. I'm trying not to rush into extreme dieting but my gut is so huge and uncomfortable right now it's difficult not to think about all the time. I'm feeling a bit stressed with work as well. This morning I was driving to a job and realized my work truck needed fuel, I pulled into a gas station and realized I left my wallet in my personal vehicle, I really wanted to get to this job and get started so I figured I would just get there and ask my step dad/business partner to bring my wallet to me later in the day, I continued on and got most of the way to the job and called him, he told me to meet him at a gas station and now I'm just sitting here waiting for him. It would've been much quicker and easier if i had just turned around instead and headed back to the shop and grabbed my damn wallet. It's not really a big deal, and now that I'm writing it out I'm calming down internally, but still, I have a lot to get done and I don't want to waste time/waste my motivation.

Back on prozac, day six I think, we will see what my doc thinks about it tomorrow, I made the choice on my own. Wait, this has to be day 7. Anyway. Got a big chunk of change back from my taxes this morning, instantly put that towards my debt, paid off maybe 12% of my debt and that's pretty cool. Once I get my school loans and this personal loan paid off I'll have an extra $766 a month not going out. This will take another two years possibly. That's disheartening but I try not to focus on it too much.

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