posted 2019-01-10 10:46:52

Jesús, depression came in and side swiped me hard. This shit feels like way too much right now. I can't keep bouncing back and forth like this. I want consistency, stability, I want to know what to expect from myself from day to day, week to week. I accept and understand that it's perfectly normal to have bad days, but this shit can't be normal. Even if it is, I'm not sure I can accept it.

But what are my options?

I did my best to pour out half of a prozac capsule and took the other half, my hope being that it's simply withdrawal and I can figure out a way to taper off without fully going back on. I guess I'll see how that goes.

Didn't make it to the gym Tuesday because we actually had a demanding physical day at work removing some trees and trimming some bushes and I hadn't taken a day to recover for a little bit, then yesterday was just full on lazy ass doing nothing but eating and watching TV. Tonight I'm considering doing a restorative yoga class, guess it depends on how I feel when I get home.

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