posted 2019-02-09 00:15:03

I cried today. My mom called me and told me she sold off some of my grandmothers investments and that she was going to give me $1,000. Out of the blue. Unexpected. Never mentioned to her my financial struggles. I was at work, I had to close my office door because I just broke down sobbing on the phone. She asked why I was a crying. I said thank you and that this was extremely generous of her. What I didnít tell her was that I was crying because this presented me an opportunity to get a leg up out of my struggles. I also didnít tell her that I was crying because I was ashamed I needed to accept her gift. Every part of me wants to say thanks but no thanks to it. But I canít. I need it. I love you mom.

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