posted 2018-08-15 16:08:36
I am so envious of others' success. I work my ass of, sacrifice for my career, always keep an eye open for opportunities....yet I never seem to find them. When I do, the door is so often slammed in my face. I see other continually succeed, get raises, move up, do better. They are climbing to the top of the mountain while I am running on a flat track. Around and around I go. I turn corners every now and again but it always leads me back to where I was before. The tires on my car have been spinning loose for nearly 2 years now. There is so much smoke coming off of them I can barely see in front of me. All I want to do is gain traction and go forward but my wheels continue to spin. They've been spinning for so long I fear I'm running out of rubber and they will burst soon. God only knows what will happen after that.
I am so sick of trying and not succeeding. I am so jealous of everyone's success. I just want a small bit of it for myself. I feel like crying when I think about it.