Take On M.E.:
posted 2019-04-20 19:58:24

The associate,as I affectionately called him circa 2002 on this site, his first babyís momma just added me on FB. She was referred to as Big Titty

His daughter is almost 14 and has a fb page. She looks so much like both parents. Shit is crazy. Last time I saw her was like 09

She looks happy which makes me happy. Sheís in a special honors program, both her parents are ridiculously smart but past trauma hindered their potential. Big Titty looks like sheís doing well for herself which also makes me happy

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(confidential):
posted 2019-04-20 14:45:45

happy 130th birthday führer! the world still hasnt recovered from your departure.

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runawaystar:
posted 2019-04-18 06:39:21

I recently spent over a thousand dollars on airfare, lodging, and transportation for a vacation that I'll be taking later this year. I'm considering that my reward for surviving another harsh, unrelenting winter and feeling like this since the beginning of November:

https://cdn-media.threadless.com/submissions_wm/769882-cb45af4960ed13ec1b0f0d8731fceb86.jpg

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Epigenetic:
posted 2019-04-17 23:44:15

a lot going on these days. Graduate in three weeks, i hope. Pod romance going well.

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waterproof: Alpha Dad
posted 2019-04-16 22:08:53

From a distance I can see the bikes and toys scattered in the driveway and my parking spot is inaccessible. Ugh. But toddler boy is smiling and waving that dad is home so not too bad.

Then I see the neighbor kids running around. I lock my jaw... but not going to let this ruin my day. Not going to yell this time.

We weren't cut out for daycare work. That's one of the reasons why we don't have a daycare! But every "nice" day this spring has been rained on by coming home to chaos.

I've never yelled at any other kids unless they were doing something dangerous. These kids, though, these kids have some kind of smug ownership of the world. As if no one has ever told them no. And their only purpose in life, from my perspective, is testing the most patient man in the world's patience, me.

I'm allowed about 5 seconds to put shorts on and my wife is tapping her toes waiting to mow the lawn (first of the year). Ok ok, I'll give her a break and watch happy toddler kid and my other son wants to play Battle Beasts (yeah those Battle Beasts from the 80's). My daughter went to the neighbor kids' house. All was good! I was gonna be a no-yelling afternoon!

After about 10 minutes of divided attention and saving the happy toddler from death a few times, the Battle Beasts went back into their bag for next time and the toddler is getting fussy. So I try to get dinner started before the happy toddler turns into Chucky. Then the fucking doorbell rings and I see the unfettered hell demon and his sister running from the door.

Not gonna yell. Not gonna yell. Not gonna yell.

"HEY!" I see little spines tense up in my garage. "THE DOORBELL IS NOT A TOY TO PLAY WITH. YOU PUSH THE BUTTON WHEN YOU WANT TO COME INSIDE! OTHERWISE YOU DON'T TOUCH IT! IT GOES DIRECTLY TO NEST HEADQUARTERS, A FULLY OWNED SUBSIDIARY OF GOOGLE, LLC. GOOGLE MINES EACH VIDEO FROM THE DOORBELL AND HAS ALREADY CREATED A PATTERN THAT YOU ARE A TROUBLE MAKER. WHEN YOU'RE OLDER AND GET YOUR FIRST ANDROID PHONE (PROBABLY WHEN YOU'RE 9, KNOWING YOUR PARENTS) AND USE FACIAL RECOGNITION TO UNLOCK YOUR PHONE, GOOGLE'S AI WILL ALREADY HAVE YOU FLAGGED. I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT WILL MEAN AT THIS POINT BUT I KNOW FOR SURE I WILL USE ALL OF THE TOOLS AT MY DISPOSAL TO KEEP YOU AWAY FROM MY DAUGHTER!

"We're going to get dinner started. It's time for you guys to go home."

"But our mom said-"

"I SAID IT'S TIME TO GO HOME!"

Later I saw my daughter crying outside and I thought I screwed up big time, scaring off her friends when she was having fun. But apparently she fell down trying to get inside, because the other kid LOCKED THE DAMN DOOR!

I don't remember my dad yelling at neighbor kids or other parents yelling at me, or at least it was rare. But I also respected my friend's parents as far as I can remember. I was excited that there were kids close in age to mine - so they could have neighborhood friends and run around together like I had growing up. But I lose it when they don't know common sense decency (WE DON'T WRITE ON THE PEG PEREGO JEEP WITH CHALK) and obviously have never had any limits or been told not to do something (WE DON'T SAY BUTTHEAD AT MY HOUSE!). I shut that shit down right off the bat. My wife shuts them down more gracefully.

I remember when I was around 9 and sprayed my friend's windows with a Super Soaker. It was fun. His dad calmly came out and sternly told us both to clean the windows. I had done it, but my friend got in trouble with his dad. I felt terrible and apparently registered it to memory. That graceful but firm rebuke told me I failed my friend and his dad and I wasn't going to do that again.

Unfortunately, yelling will lead to more hiding than it will command respect. Yelling should be reserved for key moments when they're doing something dangerous. Yelling isn't helpful because I'm pissed about finding myself running an impromptu daycare... pushing your kids on the swing while you're getting stuff done around your house or getting dinner ready. I'm not pissed at your kids. I'm pissed at you. Maybe come down and talk to us next time and we can have a beer and you can watch me yell at your kids.

Parents! Yell at your kids, or someone else will.

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beautifulagony:
posted 2019-04-15 23:28:54

My guy tenderized my insides last night with his penis.

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Gauntlet:
posted 2019-04-11 09:33:29

Started 80mg of prozac and what do you know, I've been in ketoish diet for ten days, back in the gym, walking my pup, I feel almost returned to normal. And yet, there's still some part of me that wonders if it's really the prozac, how crazy is that? I wish I could just fully accept prozac and never question it again.

I have a counseling appointment today, not really sure what I'll talk about, maybe about the feelings toward prozac, or how I feel with my puppy. She's home all day, typically crated cause she seems to be more calm that way when I come home, less anxious, then I come home after typically 6 hours sometimes 7, at most 8, then we go outside and play with all the various balls in my back yard. We typically play for 10-30 mins, til she is panting and seems ready for a break. Then I'll go inside, maybe shower, cook some food, watch some TV, then I don't really know what else to do, I can't leave cause then she's just home alone again which doesn't seem fair, most places I go I can't take her, and leaving her in the car doesn't seem any more fun for her. Also leaving her in the car in summer isn't possible. So then I just sit around the house on my phone watching TV trying not to chew too much nicotine him or eat shitty food. I've been taking her for long walks at a local park/nature area, we will be gone for like an hour and a half. I can't do that every day though.

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The Dean:
posted 2019-04-06 21:50:42

My son would have turned 18 yesterday.

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developingaif: why
posted 2019-04-04 11:34:54

tell me why i spend more time angry than i do happy.
why i look to start every day fresh but it seems to be ruined by noon.
why iím trying to feel comfortable in the here & now but iím realizing iím not comfortable with anything in my life.
why i feel rejected by you.
why i try every day to find our happy again.
why i hurt how i do, but i canít turn to you.
why youíre the one person i should be able to turn to.

why i question every day if we even have a future in this world together.
why i question if what iím feeling is resentment.



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caterpillar:
posted 2019-04-02 20:16:33

two months of dating cyan, and it's weirdly good. we have a lot in common. we like each other. he's got a few long-term long-distance relationships, and i'm fine with that. he's fine with the idea of me dating women if i feel like it. but really i don't think i want to spend that much time on dating multiple people. seems fine to just stick with this for now.

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