A Better M.E.: Slide in them dmís
posted 2019-12-10 00:49:28

I scheduled a 2nd date with 1, then she wanted to reschedule to a day I have plans, so weíll see how that plays out.
Shot my shot with M from school, rejected! Nicely tho.
The German sent me a passive aggressive text. Iím not responding to that.
FT wants me to go to her office Christmas party...at this point Iíd go if it wasnít my momís bday.

I might slide in the dmís of this girl from college I had a huge crush on. Sheís been liking a lot of my shit lately. Letís call her Hot Topic.

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Who's Grotesque?:
posted 2019-12-03 18:35:27

Banned from YouTube again. It was fun while it lasted.

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posted 2019-12-03 18:32:18

my girl is really great. she's sweet and practical and affectionate and also really into me. she likes talking about feelings and projects. she writes little love letters to me, and i send her little letters back. it is...good.

cyan is still my weird boyfriend but he's still weird and slightly distant, sweet but always a little opaque.

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posted 2019-12-03 14:31:17

what the shit, bunch of new gibberish journals with nothing in them. We get hacked, yall?

If you start getting hatemail(tm) from me with ads for raybans in them, don't click it!

I feel like life is going well as long as I don't fuck it up. I'm supposed to do a project on improving nursing on my unit. I WANT to do a thing on nursing considerations for fecal transplant therapy, but we don't do that on my unit, and it's weird, and i'm like mad at myself that I constantly need to be different, more ambitious, bigger, and can't just shut the hell up and do the job in front of me well.

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s n a p s:
posted 2019-12-03 08:24:19

So I'm in the library, procrastinating again, so I decided to clean up the bookmarks on our ancient Mac. Seriously, my husband bought this computer when we were *dating* and we are coming up on 10 years of marriage. Anyway, this was a deep dive into my old web-surfing days.... it's insane how many websites I used to frequent shut down (the Consumerist, the Awl, of course Gawker...) but also .... man, surfing the internet used to be a lot more diverse. I had dozens of different tabs and folders and bookmarks and now I just scroll through Reddit's neverending sprawl of information and garbage and .... I'd forgotten I used to navigate the web in a totally different way. They really have just dumbed it down to a few streams of stuff. The internet is homogenized and the time capsule of what it used to be brought me back to another time. Fitting that the decade is almost over and I'm looking back in the the 08s/09s of my internet life.

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posted 2019-12-02 20:40:33

You haven't seen a music video until you've seen a 360° music video.

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existential crisis:
posted 2019-12-02 03:38:42

The new facebook news feed is bullshit. It keeps showing me the same shit over and over now, from days ago or not, but the same shit over and over that I've scrolled past multiple times already. It wasn't doing this until recently. Must be a new fucking thing they're trying, but it's annoying as fuck.

I'm currently waiting in line on the crisis chat website. Hoping that someone there can fucking help me because I'm running out of options.

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The Dean:
posted 2019-12-01 06:22:04

I have a really miniature penis.

I'm also gay.

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posted 2019-11-29 11:11:06

On the Other Side:
It happened. I donít feel gay or less straight. I donít feel guilt or shame. I felt all those things off and on before but no longer. However, this is not something I see myself pursuing ever again.

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la brava ragazza: A good day's coming, and I'll be there to...
posted 2019-11-27 23:21:08

...let the sun in.

This afternoon, the Maestro met my mother. That was interesting.

We were near her work and I asked him if he wanted to pop in and meet her. He 100% called my bluff, and he was completely serious. And since he made the decision that, yes, we were going to visit her, I had to obey.

He is a truly remarkable man. I feel so safe and taken care of. And I know he wants only the best for me. So while I don't have much of a relationship with that woman, he is encouraging me to be open and find a healthy balance.

It feels so good to be with him, regardless of what we're doing. Even that.

And all the things I used to think before or want or dream of are real with him. We really get each other. He felt that since I joked about it, that there was probably a tiny part of me that wanted to see her and wanted to introduce him to her.

This weekend is going to be eventful. I'm excited.

Friday we'll spend time at my flat and actually go over the checklist that we were too distracted to do last weekend. And on Saturday, it's the office holiday event, and he's going to meet my littlest brother.

How fun. ;)

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