SpicyDesertHam: havalina
posted 2026-07-10 00:29:50
Well, I’m too old to remember my password I guess so. I have a new account. I haven’t been here in a while…
Life is lifin’
Listened to some Stone Temple Pilots today. I haven’t done that in well over 20 years.
Kinda hits different now.
It’s strange how a song can just fold time in half. For a few minutes I was right back there… younger, figuring things out, feeling everything so intensely, with no idea where life was going to take me.
Back then the songs were just the soundtrack. Now I hear the years between the notes. The people I’ve lost. The versions of myself I’ve outgrown. The memories I didn’t even realize were still tucked away somewhere.
Funny how music does that. It doesn’t just remind you who you were … it shows you how far you’ve traveled.
Still a little messy. Still figuring things out. Just with a few more miles and a lot more perspective.
beautifulagony:
posted 2026-07-10 00:09:45
Deer broke up with his 3rd gf since the breakup. I dm'ed him and he thought I was his ex gf and black. wow the guy. *smh* I can't belive I actually fell in love with that asshole.
Anyways, everything I keep telling him is coming true. I guess he's going to continue to keep finding out.
Hikikomori:
posted 2026-07-02 06:52:51
Fuck PlayStation. Fuck being forced into digital only gaming. Fuck "you will own nothing and be happy". Fuck enshittification.
PuzzleCoder: Hummanity Is Lost
posted 2026-06-12 00:06:49
I have cleaned my life up. Quit sticking needles in neck and literally found the reason to life my life in a healthy and productive way. Yet my new job involves me managing 20 people who all expect to be paid the most for doing the least. I have to babysit grown ass people. I understand that we all have things going on in our lifes and want to enjoy the summer but where do you draw the line when it comes to giving a fuck about your job???? the biggest part of the world that I am apart of want everything but will not give up even 2 miniutes of theyre day for the greater group. WTF is this world coming to?? I am working 60 hours a week getting good grades in college, staying sober and helping my employees not lose there jobs by standing up for them when they dont deserve it just cause it's right. what do i get???? fucked in the ass and having to push back pay for dinner and for parking.While they get a day off and I get to go to work sore from a night of getting jsckhammerd on. Metaphorically speaking. No bias just speaking on the term of dry rough sex that I have to pay for and go to work after my "lover" takes pto and goes home..... ahhh I love being the only one who has pride in my work and is really a patient person.
Madi:
posted 2026-06-09 17:56:44
Human intelligence was a curse in disguise
With it we created this massive pool of knowledge, skills, inventions
And humans kept aiming ever higher
It felt like progress at the time
From creating spoken languages to inventing a pocket-sized computer to use at all hours of the day
Modern conveniences made our lives easier, better, more comfortable
I used to think, “how lucky am I to live in this modern world” while reading Laura Ingalls Wilder
But humans flew too close to the sun
We have thought and invented our way straight into extinction
We have doomed ourselves and every species on this planet
And when we die, our memories, knowledge, languages, and history will be erased forever
Everything we ever worked and suffered for will be gone and forgotten
But we continue living as if our place on Earth is permanent and guaranteed
What else can we do?
For as long as humans have been humans, mothers have cared for babies who grow up and have babies and grow old and die
Rinse and repeat for generations after generations after generations
How many billions of lives have existed at some point on this planet
And how novel to be one of the last generations of human lives
For now, we can reject our programming
We don’t have to bring more lives into the world only for them to witness the sunset of our existence
And when we are gone, the world will go on
Silently waiting for life to bloom again
reply by wonko the sane
aneurysm: 53
posted 2026-06-01 01:10:45
And then one day you find.
Ten years have got behind you.
No one told you when to run.
You missed the starting gun
reply by wonko the sane
sero.duh:
posted 2026-05-30 21:44:41
Lately I've felt like a frayed nerve.
Everything is making me jumpy and irritable and anxious and annoyed.
I went in for an ADHD assessment and the results came back that, because of the anxiety disorder I've had for the past 30 years, it's difficult to confirm if I actually have ADHD.
Of course, I already have a diagnosis from when I was a kid, but apparently that doesn't count once you're old.
It doesn't really matter though, does it? The only thing a confirmed diagnosis will do for me is get me access to medication, and I don't want to be medicated.
Still felt invalidating though.
My daughter had a boyfriend. It was sweet and cute and then it went a little sour (like high school things do) and he broke up with her. Then he panicked and tried to get back with her. She stood her ground (so proud!) and in response he showed up at our house pounding on the door and ringing the doorbell over and over when she was home by herself. (He didn't realize we have a camera doorbell, what a dummy.) Terrified her and she hid in our closet until he left.
Nice to know that boys are still growing up with unchecked crazypants behavior around relationships. Reminds me of my own teen years.
I told his parents and I'm sure it's not going well for him, but ugh. Really hoped I could have my kid avoid that for a least a little while longer.
In a very weird, fucked up way, I got pulled in as a witness to an internal affairs investigation at work.
The subject is someone I work closely with and their mistake is really just being an airhead who refuses to acknowledge that where we work is terrifying in a number of ways.
But in the midst of my interview (which was awful and I would clearly die of terror if I ever actually committed a crime) they turned the questions around on me to see if I had also done wrong.
I have not done wrong. But I did panic and blabber a mile a minute and forget half of what I was talking about (because who the fuck likes to be interrogated by veteran internal affairs special agents who act like they already know you're a giant piece of shit and are just waiting for you to agree with them) and now I've spent the last several weeks sick to my stomach knowing I had to put a kind (but really fucking stupid) coworker on blast and also wonder if I'm going to suddenly get fired because I am also secretly a fuckup but I just forgot.
Also. I got fat. It's a real fucking bummer.
Epigenetic:
posted 2026-05-09 17:32:22
This morning about six am my father had a stroke.
He was flown to the downtown medical center i used to work at, scanned, and had a thrombectomy about an hour later, and before noon was in his ICU room, where he remains.
Accursed mortality.
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reply by beautifulagony
lackluster: Stop
posted 2026-05-09 00:53:15
Just because it's legally binding, does not mean you've kept the right to your title. You've failed. Do better before trying to guilt me otherwise. How I feel about your worth has degraded each time you broke me down. Well, not anymore.
That1lonelygirl: Zuzu <3
posted 2026-04-26 16:07:46
09/04/2010-04/25/2026
Yesterday was a particularly devastating day.
We said goodbye to my baby boy, my best canine friend. He came into my life a few short months after losing my father passed and has been the constant in life ever since then. He's always been my higher maintenance diva. Eating chocolate covered almonds, a two day trip into the great outdoors followed by a jailing at the human society, ear issues, skin issues, falling off a porch and bruising his signature tail, 4th of July freakouts, and all 80 pounds of his excitement over other dogs he can greet or squirrels he can chase. The last two years in particular were rough. It started with an unknown injury that was noticed when we tried to take him outside to go potty. It eventually developed into him not being able to pull himself up from a seated or laying position. Then it brought accidents, urine and stool. Pads, diapers, frequent cleanings.
Earlier this year he started having excessive thirst. My first thought was kidney failure, he's an older dog and part of his breeding has these issues. I took him to a vet that specializes in geriatric dogs. They did a thorough physical exam from head to toe, blood work, urine sample, and stoop sample. He's a large sized 15 year old dog, but overall he's in good shape. They gave me some antibiotics due to a UTI and pain medicine (though pain doesn't appear to be much of an issue for him). They also gave me information on at home euthanasia.
He also greeted me at the door every single day. Needing to be by my side constantly. If I went outside without him he didn't understand why he couldn't also go. He crawled in the bed at night once we were fast asleep so he could be closer to us. He loved all people and animals. He was so great with and beloved by all the kids that were in his life. He loved his big squeaky tennis ball, going on hikes, and butt scratchens. More than anything though, he LOVED food. Over the last few of years for his birthday he got a nice rare steak. He slurped it down happily! He was healthy eater until then end. For his last meal, we went to Freddy's He has a burger, fries, chicken strips, and a shake. He ate it ALL.
For his last day, we put him in a cart and took him for a walk on the trail, took him for a long car ride, and cuddled him at home. Ultimately, he wanted to live, but his body just failed him. He passed away at home surrounded by those that love him. Balling their eyes out. When the vet came, but body was screaming no no no this is wrong. I wanted to run away and push them out the door. He had failed to thrive over the last week and a half. He was getting weaker. He tried to be the good boy he was but he just wasn't physically capable anymore though he tried so hard.
I rationalized that you don't put down a deaf person, a blind person, a disabled person, or a person with incontinence issues. Quality of life is important. His quality was poor and he deserved better than his current life. I also feel he told me it was time as well. Slowing down even more than before. I don't regret it but I am forever changed by it. Even now, I can't hold back the tears. I thought I got them all out yesterday, guess I was wrong.
I'm so happy to have the time I did with him. I will never ever ever regret that. He's what I NEEDED. I just hope there's a heaven or a rainbow bridge so I can see him again and more specifically in his happier days.
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