posted 2019-06-16 00:43:51

A bit disengaged generally with recent winter ailments and employment trials. Hidding in toilets with that upset stomach and unpredictable digestion feelings and some dread for the day in store. I do little. My body wants sleep. This is warning signs for the pit of darkness, but it's at struggling to maintain some grip on my here and now and using energy or letting go to risk plunging deeper in, but trusting I won't. Not yet at point of not being able to move or save self, but noticing the warnings.

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The Dean:
posted 2019-06-15 10:29:24

You will never hear a successful person say there is no free will. Only weak, defeatist, excuse-making failures who refuse to take ownership of their lives will spout pseudo-philosophical bullshit like that.

"There is no free will" - Never said by President Trump

"There is no free will" - Never said by The Dean

"There is no free will" - Never said by any millionaire or billionaire

"There is no free will" - Never said by anyone who has ever accomplished anything in life

Man the fuck up and stop feeling like a powerless, helpless pussy.

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Dead 2 M.E.:
posted 2019-06-14 19:59:46

All cops need to be retrained, some need jail and some need bullets between their eyes.

If the video I saw today happened to me or my family and the cops were not put in jail, Iíd kill someone they love and burn the cops alive and save them inches from death and let them live like that.

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posted 2019-06-14 09:43:16

Hmm, not enjoying my first week off from work. I got the bloody flu and this cough is bad. My ribs and back hurt from all the coughing I been doing.

Another thing is that I have this pain on my Achilles that always seem to resurface anytime I do any kind of quick walking. I remember last time it took me over a month to recover for good.

Worst foot pain I ever had was back in March of this year. I had severe heel pain. Anytime I placed weight on my foot it felt as was stepping on sharp object. I get gout occasionally and it was on par in terms of pain.

At the point in time, going out and exercising is looking unlikely but I hope on Tuesday I am well enough to do a 2 hour session of exercising.

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posted 2019-06-13 17:30:28

In the process of writing a letter. Also, I should document my life again. Things are getting weird.

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the best of fschmidt:
posted 2019-06-04 19:33:25

"Men should take authority, not be given authority. Men should say fuck modern culture and fuck the government. Then women know that men's actions are not bound by these things, and this is what gives men authority."

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obscured lucidity: --
posted 2019-05-31 04:16:10

heard some coyotes raising hell closer than usual an hour or so ago. i went for a walk to see if they wished to engage. no joy. maybe next time.

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Epigenetic: breakup
posted 2019-05-29 21:21:53

So one of the two members of my polycule broke up with us today. We are all sad. We love each other, but the poly thing makes her depressed, and she's got plenty of other issues.

I'm slightly relieved. She's the first person I ever told about the whole poly thing, and she was totally nonjudgmental and fine with it, and I realize now that was partially because she was also a very unhappy alcoholic really looking for any affection or stability and I kind of took advantage of that, and now that she's like several months sober, she's like "WTF am I doing?"

That makes me sad.

She's really ridiculously good looking, too.

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posted 2019-05-24 21:38:05

I have debt totaling $50,000

My options are:

1. Bankruptcy
2. Debt resettlement
3. Consolidation loan

I really want to avoid #1...
#2 seems like a scam ...
#3 I might not qualify

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gracefully cursed: 2004
posted 2019-05-22 22:14:47

Iíve not been on this site since I was a junior in high school, in 2004. I had a couple close friends on here back then, but everything was kept anonymous. My mind is in a bad place lately. It was such a comfort to me to find out this was still going, so I could come back. Iím not sure I remember how to do this, or where to start. Iíll be back when Iíve started sorting things out.

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